This is the first free Friday I have had in a long time. Well sort of.. Sean and I did take off for an overnight trip a couple of weeks ago, but this is my first Friday where I haven’t worked and have been out of the office an in the house with the kids.
If I am going to be totally honest, I haven’t spent many evenings with the kids the last few months. Growing a business is hard work and extremely time consuming, especially when you have no other option but to make it work (I will save the why for another post). My hard work has paid off, and the business is doing well, and for the first time in months I was able to spend Friday evening with the kids.
And… it was kind of hard. I am in the midst of one of the worst fibromyalgia flares I have ever had. This means it hurt if the kids pretty much just touch me and I am super sensitive to sound. As you can imagine with four kids, our house is noisy and the kids miss me and want to sit with me. And it hurts so much. But tonight I toughed it out and just chilled on the sofa with them. I did take some painkillers, so I was partially stoned from them, but it made me not freak out at them for just touching me. And as overwhelming as it was, and painful, it was 100% worth it. I miss my kids and I hope I can have more evenings free.
Now they are in bed, and I honestly felt a bit at a loss… I have no pressing work, so I truly have a free evening. But it has been so long since I have had an evening with out the stresses of work hanging over me, or my just crashing due to getting up at 4 am to get stuff done. So I really do not know what to do with myself.
So I am doing something I haven’t done in a long time. I turned on Netflix to watch more of Once Upon A Time, am sitting her writing this blog post, and once this is posted I am going to get back to a drawing I started early while I was sitting with the kids. It feels kind of nice to watch Netflix on the TV, while sitting on the couch and it not being just background noise. Also that it is something that I want to do, where I am not down in my office doing it. Also I haven’t really picked up my pencils in years. I can feel that I am out of practice, but it feels nice to draw a little. And with that… goodnight or good day depending when you read this. I am doing to continue working on this: